It’s the last day of our 30 day Awesome in April challenge and I thought I’d write a post about how it was from my perspective.
The challenge was to celebrate every day with something that makes you so awesome!
The aim of the challenge was to shift your focus from those inadequacies that we hone in on all too often and to celebrate those fabulous things about us that we sometimes overlook.
The challenge was to write a list, adding one thing every day; a personal strength, something that makes you feel good doing, makes you feel happy, connected, like you are serving a higher purpose. If you were really bold, you shared your awesome on Instagram or facebook (or both).
I’ve got to tell you, I found it challenging.
I found it challenging for two reasons. Firstly, I found it challenging coming up with 30 things, and secondly, I found it challenging sharing those things with the universe. Well, my friends on social media anyway.
The first few days were easy. I had the things that people always tell me in the front of my mind, the job interview ones, the easy ones. After that I had to dig a bit deeper.
Digging though meant my inner critic was very active, bringing up times when I wasn’t perfect at the strength I had thought of, or comparing my strength to others, putting me down and occasionally scoffing at me.
However, I am not one to back down from a commitment (hell, there’s a strength I could have used!), so I had to have a gentle disagreement with my inner critic and put my chosen strength forward regardless.
Occasionally I had a joke with her, “yes, I know I’m not the world champion at parallel parking, however I am pretty damn good at it, so shush!”. By about half way into the challenge I found myself looking for things I did well during my day and acknowledging them.
This is not my usual thinking pattern. I found myself actually taking on board peoples’ compliments, rather than dismissing them. “Thank you very much! I’ll take that!”.
Declaring my strengths publically was a huge challenge, and a bigger challenge was reigning in and quietening those inner gremlins that thrive on stopping me from standing out.
As a tall person it feels like I’ve spent a life time trying to not stand out, trying to blend in, and here I was spouting on about myself! What a show off!
I had a good look at my fear of standing out, and saw that the fear is really a fear of not being liked and a fear of not being good enough. I rationalised this by knowing that my people are my people. That some people will get me and some won’t and that’s completely okay.
Being a life coach and in business means I have to allow myself to be seen, allow myself to stand out, perhaps more publicly than I was originally comfortable with. I can’t expect others to do what I won’t do, and I know that the best way to lead is by example.
Even if it means being really uncomfortable and feeling really vulnerable.
It’s in that discomfort that the personal growth happens.
Did you do the Awesome in April Challenge?
How did you find it?
What did you learn?